horsesandridding

Well after a long , long time I decided to blog back Long as passed these years ... The end of the biggest error I have ever made . The birth of a Child that was the only thing good after 3 years of a life that I never deserved or wished for . Came back from Lisbon to the South Side . Surprisingly I was At my prime . Managed to move back without problems , living , ridding and working . The month passed by . a bit of Over party led me to loosing my Licence for 9 month . Overcame that . Got It back . And continued to be the Hatefull Me . we are talking about 2012 , December. Spent new year alone with my girl (Daughter) . Got her this year . I even managed an Event that got TV Attencion . Yes Horses in the Capital Lisbon . I used to pay great to this and other things I would do . Even brag about them . But now nothing is important . I promissed myself I would just talk about Horses here . But in the beggining of the Year I met ... I can I say this ... In forty years I had Never seen someone so special , Beautifull and Dreamlike . Odete By Her name and It was Love at first site . She is a Horse Person and My Soulmate . I imeddiatly saw that . But I was so Selfish during those 6 month . I was , as always in my life , blind , Selfish and stomach full . We are now on a separation period taht I wish that can end now ... Yet it does not Some times she says it is both Our fault . But no Mine only . Can See now and I am in deep pain . Have to stand againt all my fears , all the thing that i taught that could not happen to me , The King ... But there is no king here . A Beggar maybe , No . A Begger yes , Begging for The Love of my Life to return and hoping that I do not die of It . I could continue now but again Tears fill my Eyes and "I will be Back " to the Wll of Sorrys that I face with the absence of my other Half ... Meanwhile and for those who will never read this or , in fact , do so . Treasure You Love , Always place Her on that pedastal for She is Your Godess , She is the reason you took your first breath when arriving in this planet ..